and what kind of life is this?

i just cant seem to find a real friend outside of my husband. all i have are friends that dont call, and that never hang out with me, and what kind of friend is that? i love dustin i just need more than one friend, is that wrong of me? well weather it is or not, it doesnt matter because im coming to the conclusion that ill never have any real friends at all.

thats right bitches.......

Im back to my old crazy ANNOYING self!!!!! for i was once lost but know i am found! and you guys can FOOOK oFF! t('' t) yeah!

just a little bit of recent work............



steve martin, 1st session....

3rd pin up 1st session....

flowers...

cant shake this feeling!

FUCK! what the hell is wrong with me?! i cant shake this horrible feeling of insecurity, hopelessness, and a serious lack in motivation.
i feel like all my friends secretly hate me. so much so that I'm only comfortable enough to be myself with two people in this world. Dustin and Tonya. what the hell happened to me? i never used to give a fuck about that shit now I'm too afraid to ask someone to hang out cause i don't want to annoy them or have them say yes out of pity.
i just feel like i have a whole in my heart. so much so that i will randomly just start to cry for absolutely no reason. even listening to a happy song.
i just feel hated.

blah

healed